Two years ago my Cardiologist said I wouldn't live another 3 months, all due to 50 years of Cocaine and Meth addiction. So I decided to write a book about how I wasted a lifetime in what now seems like the blink of an eye, but being raised an Atheist the last person I expected to find while writing was god, but there he was in story after story and I came to the realization that although I didn't believe in him, he never stopped believing in me.