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Finding Himself : From New Mexico to the Sierra Madre and Back : Volume I: The Matthew–Matt Trilogy Kindle Edition
Matthew was raised by a profoundly religious Mexican mother and Anglo father. When in his twenties, he believes he has been called by God to embark on a mission to spread the gospel among the indigenous Tarahumaras in northern Chihuahua, Mexico.
He leaves behind his family and sweetheart, Dotty, to walk “like Jesus walked.” He also hitchhikes through the remote southern New Mexico desert and the rugged Sierra Madre into the Copper Canyon area.
Matthew befriends Jesús and stays with his family, working with him in the field by day and engaging in long conversations at night. They discuss folk beliefs, the Tarahumara religion, and philosophy. Matthew’s faith begins to waver and he finds himself in a sea of ambiguity.
Following a dramatic change of mind, heart, and soul, he decides to return home to orient his strange emerging self. On the way, he has a run-in with drug traffickers and kills one of them; he is mugged twice and loses his faith in the goodness of mankind; his financial resources diminish, compelling him to collaborate in a robbery.
In short, his life becomes what before his journey would have been virtually unthinkable. Physically drained, when he is back home and sees Dotty, he can do no more than weakly whisper her name, leaving the novel open to multiple interpretations.
About the Author:
floyd merrell is retired and lives in Las Cruces, New Mexico. “I taught at Purdue University from 1973 to 2011. During those years I wrote a number of academic books for specialists in Latin American culture and literature, and communication theory (semiotics). Finding Himself is my first novel.”
Publisher’s website: http://sbprabooks.com/floydmerrell
Product details
- ASIN : B00EIM7NN8
- Publisher : Strategic Book Publishing and Rights Co. (August 12, 2013)
- Publication date : August 12, 2013
- Language : English
- File size : 776 KB
- Text-to-Speech : Enabled
- Screen Reader : Supported
- Enhanced typesetting : Enabled
- X-Ray : Not Enabled
- Word Wise : Enabled
- Print length : 220 pages
- Customer Reviews:
About the author

Retired college prof, Purdue University (1973-2011). Wrote too many professional books in mind-numbing 'academese.' Now would like to think he's writing fiction and nonfiction about identity crises, border issues, ethnic interrelations, and mental glitches of multiple sorts. Now floundering in whirlpooling word cascades wildly sweeping him along. Yet this year managed to publish FINDING HIMSELF and THE AFRO-BRAZILIAN ART OF COPING. LOOKING GLASS KILLER will appear at the end of this year.
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- Reviewed in the United States on November 22, 2018Floyd Merrell’s novel, Finding Himself, is an engaging coming-of-age story about a young man, Matt, who is both boldly devout and fiercely independent. Feeling a vocation to preach his Christian faith, he leaves his home in the Southwest and begins a lone journey, mostly on foot, across the border and into the most indigenous (and because of the drug wars, possibly the most dangerous) part of Mexico. The novel is rich with details of Mexican life and culture, painting a convincing picture of unexpected encounters with groups and individuals who would aid or obstruct the young man on his quest. A novel of ideas, the story follows Matt as he encounters the radical otherness of native life and begins to question many of the foundations of his system of beliefs. The tenets of his morality become less secure as he must try to survive in precarious situations. He sees the wisdom and generosity of persons and groups who would be considered primitive by most Westerners. I was intrigued by the main character, and engaged with his earnest, ingenuous and sometimes foolish quest for personal righteousness. I enjoyed being introduced to a Mexico far deeper than the foreign eye is normally able to see. And I felt intellectually stimulated by the young man’s interior debate as he gradually finds a more open, more possible world-view.